One of those nights……

It’s been one of those sleepless nights.  Tossing and turning.  I finally just said the heck with sleep and got up.  Cruised through Facebook, checked my email and nothing much going on.  Decided it was time to get back to the blog.  I did find several posts that I had drafted and for some reason had never published.  Wonder why I did that?  Hmmmmm………

I’ve been tied up for the past month and a half compiling a booklet to be given out in a week at my 50th high school reunion.  I had sent out questionnaires to all the classmates about their lives and put it all together in book form.  We have several pages of pictures that were sent to me and I was especially proud of the Dedication page.  All in all, I was pretty proud of the entire booklet the other day when I took it to the printers and hope that everyone will be pleased.  I know I got really emotional when they handed me a proofing copy to look over.  All that work, all the laughter, all the tears…….all the typing.  I felt like I was turning over one of my children as I walked out of the store.  I’m going to pick up the final copies tomorrow afternoon and am going to try not to open the box and look at them again until the night of the reunion.  I probably won’t be successful, but I’m going to try.

It’s been kind of an odd feeling planning this reunion.  First of all, how the heck has it been 50 years since we were in high school?  Gosh, where has the time gone?  Second, I wasn’t even there my senior year and did not actually graduate with my class, (long story and one of these days I will talk about that on the blog) so why in the world was I planning it?  I still haven’t figured that one out, but I’ve thoroughly enjoyed most of the planning.  I think we’ve done a great job in contacting everyone. There is only a handful that seem to have vanished and a couple who have said they don’t plan to come.  Oh, well, I guess if they don’t want to be there, that’s their choice.  And I know they will miss a great time.  Third, compiling this book has totally enveloped my life for the last six weeks and did not allow me to wallow in my depression.  And that has been a good thing.  I guess when my therapist tells me to find something to keep me busy, she knows what she’s talking about, huh?  Now, I just need to get over the anxiety I am feeling about having to see everyone.

 

 

Author: alightatthetopofthehole

A mother, a grandmother, a retired teacher, a sister, a daughter, a friend, and a troubled soul. A woman working on understanding her depression and finally overcoming the feelings of inadequacy, emptiness, failure, and not being whole.

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