So, What’s my Problem? Take A Pick

  • Neck is beyond killing me.  Hurts to even hold head up.  Waiting for Nerve Test and MRI on 21st.
  • Right Shoulder killing me.  Hoping it is from neck.
  • Shooting pain straight up the back of my head.  Assuming it’s from neck.
  • Ring finger and pinky on right hand totally numb.
  • Left ear whistling and I can feel every heart beat in it. Meds for it.
  • Right ear has “Swimmer’s Ear” and I haven’t been swimming in ages.  Doc says it’s because ear canal (which is the size of half a ping-pong ball)  was filled with fluids.  Throbbing.  Different meds for right ear.
  • All these new meds have my stomach in an uproar.  Third day.  Ugh!
  • All I want to do is sleep, but can’t do so because of stomach problems.
  • Sick and tired of living alone.  (But cannot imagine being around anyone else.)
  • Sick and tired of being sick and tired.
  • And, besides all that, I am just in a crappy mood.  Super crappy.  Mega-crappy.

So, hope your day is better than mine.

THOUGHTS ABOUT MY THOUGHTS:  Better not say.  R told me to think positively and I’m trying to not talk ugly on here.

TODAY’S FEELINGS BAROMETER:  Crap

Author: alightatthetopofthehole

A mother, a grandmother, a retired teacher, a sister, a daughter, a friend, and a troubled soul. A woman working on understanding her depression and finally overcoming the feelings of inadequacy, emptiness, failure, and not being whole.

1 thought on “So, What’s my Problem? Take A Pick”

  1. Betty, I am so sorry for the pain you are in. I know how agonizing neck and shoulder pain are. And when you cannot distract yourself from this pain–and it definitely sounds neurological–there is no panacea for your suffering spirit. I don’t know why you have to swallow your feelings but that is a choice you made. I wish I had the words to make it better. But I don’t. Just know I love you and am praying for you and thinking of you. This is a shitty thing that happened. You have had more than your share. I love you and admire your tenacity and perseverance. Much love my friend.

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