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Behind my smile is a hurting heart, behind my laugh, I’m falling apart. Look closely at me and you will see, the girl I am, it isn’t me. ~~ Minigirl

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Come with me as I travel on my journey through this thing called depression, always striving to reach that all-illusive light at the top of the hole. You can be a part of the good, the bad, and the ugly. Grab a cup of coffee, a glass of wine, or a Diet Coke and join me. I can’t promise that it will all be fun and games, but I do promise you this — it will all be real.

~~~ Betty

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And Now There Is One — I’ll Miss You, KaKa

Today was a long day. Parts were sad. Parts were joyful. Parts I don’t remember. It was good to have all the family together, but I can’t believe that lately the only time we are all together seems to be for funerals. That is just not right. … Continue reading And Now There Is One — I’ll Miss You, KaKa

We Are More Than Just One Thing

Each and every person out there is so much more than one thing. We are each more than whether we eat meat or not. We are each more than whether we like roses or zinnias. We are each more than whether we like Coke or Pepsi products. We are each more than whether our favorite… Continue reading We Are More Than Just One Thing

Another Father’s Day Wasted

I wonder about posting this and may very well get in trouble with one or both of my daughters for doing so, and most likely my son if he sees it. I apologize now. But, I’m posting it with hopes and prayers that perhaps, somehow, those who need to see it, will. If not, perhaps… Continue reading Another Father’s Day Wasted

Emotions are Real

Sometimes We Ask Why

A year ago a teenager in the small town where my children grew up took her life. Much has happened in that town in the past year. Parents, grandparents, and a sibling grieved along with family members and close family friends. Adults and children cried; they got angry; they held onto each other; and they… Continue reading Sometimes We Ask Why

I Let Myself Disappear

I’ve been gone for a long time. Writing had become too hard for me. Admitting my failures, being too honest with my hopes and wishes, letting too many people into my heart, allowing others to see the hurt I was experiencing with the death of my sister, knowing that I had opened up with everyone… Continue reading I Let Myself Disappear

Repost — A Little About Me

As this new year begins, I began to look back to the beginning of my blog. I’ll admit, I’ve been lax lately. I’ve struggled to post and have found that I had to have a lightening bolt inspiration to do so. I hope that I can do better in this new year. As I looked… Continue reading Repost — A Little About Me

Please Be Careful of What You Say

As we head into 2019, I have become truly troubled today by someone’s post in our local prayer group that I administer. And that breaks my heart. A member of our group had posted asking for prayers for her child who is struggling during this holiday season with depression. So very many people truly struggle… Continue reading Please Be Careful of What You Say

Grams’ Turkey and Cornbread Dressing

As we are getting ready for the Holiday Season, I’ve been on the phone a couple of times with my daughter, Gina, getting ready for the preparation of my family-famous Cornbread Dressing. She is taking on the task this year of preparing the dressing for our family gathering. Over the years, I’ve had a few… Continue reading Grams’ Turkey and Cornbread Dressing

Another Year, Another Prayer

It’s been 52 years now since I whispered in your ear for the first time. That whisper was, “Happy Birth Day, sweet little boy”. On October 5th of each of the last 51 years, I have whispered a short prayer in my heart. On this 52nd year, I again whisper the following in my heart: Happy Birthday, Allen… Continue reading Another Year, Another Prayer

A Little About Me

This is just a short excerpt for the about page.